Boys scare me.. Their acceptance of masculinity and their striving for validation of their masculinity is alarming and I truly cannot feel safe around ppl who do not categorically reject masculinity (u don’t have to be a girl to do this)

There was been WAY TOO MUCH masculine energy in my house lately my heart is clenched in anxiety over it I need girl friends pls I need warmth and light and love and less aggressive tones and loudness

I would say it is still a very present though minor part of my identity tho in a good way

And yeah like performing sexy feminity is Not sex… Like not even close like even if it occurs in actual intimate situations there is a significant distinction there..

performing femininity and I mean specifically like Hot Femininity or Sexy Femininity can be such a fun thing that feels powerful (but is not rly)
it is satisfying to do.. Or was.. I think I associate it w trauma now so it’s like no longer a thing I can comfortably do but I can remember how fun and like accomplished it could feel… U kno?

used the last of my data playing kim k on break at workπŸ˜•

oh no the music went from some cutesy girl rapping now they playing bright eyes πŸ‘€πŸ‘€πŸ‘€πŸ‘€ πŸ˜΅πŸ”«

my allergy eyes so bad 2day look like im high an cryin